"There is no acknowledgement from Jerry Sandusky for his actions, only evil," said Victim #1 before the former coach was sentenced on Tuesday.
Below are court notes of the statements that were made by some of Jerry Sandusky's victims on Tuesday, before the former Penn State assistant football coach was sentenced to a minimum of 30 years on 45 counts of child sex abuse. The notes, which are not all verbatim, were taken by NBC News producers. The court documents of actual testimony should be released within the next few weeks.
He promised to be my friend and mentor.
Jerry Sandusky humiliated me beyond description.
I describe it as emotional agony, where it is almost impossible to trust anyone.
My years with Jerry Sandusky were taken from me, I just wanted a childhood like anyone else.
I’ve been looking over my shoulder for some time.
He smiled and smirked his way through the proceedings.
There is no acknowledgement from Jerry Sandusky for his actions, only evil.
Mother of Victim #9
You did this to satisfy your own sick and selfish needs for satisfaction.
For four years I mistakenly believed you were helping my son, instead you were molesting him.
I blame myself for your sick indulgences.
How embarrassing for me as a mother to know that something so sickening happened to my son.
I have had to endure two attempts by my son on his life.
Not only did you molest him Mr. Sandusky, you caused him a lifetime of misery.
You have destroyed my family, and I cannot forgive you for that.
How could you do this to so many people.
My poor son. You took something from him that cannot be replaced, his childhood.
As I put the 1998 shower incident that happened at Penn State into focus, I keep thinking how you betrayed me.
My personality changed for the worse and I became a social outcast.
There were so many times of confusion and sadness, and worst of all violation.
It’s time to stop coming up with excuses for your behavior.
In 2001 when I was 13 years old, Jerry Sandusky lured me into a sauna and a shower, he then touched me.
I trouble with flashbacks of his naked body.
I have struggled with nightmares and sleeplessness.
I was too ashamed.
When I was subpoenaed for the Jury, I learned I was not alone.
It has been a difficult road to travel, as it is an obligation of citizenship.
He must pay for his crimes, which he has now been appropriately convicted of.
I don’t know where to begin, you were supposed to be the person in my life to be a role model.
You had the chance to plead guilty and spare us the most humiliating moments of my life.
You should be ashamed of yourself.
I want you to know that I don’t forgive you, and I don’t know if I ever will.
I don’t allow my own child out of my sight because of what happened to me.