Nicole Kidman may look delicate with her fair skin, light ginger hair and soft features, but when it comes to looking after her baby Sunday Rose, she’s a total lioness.
In a new interview with Parade magazine, out in newspapers on Sunday, Nicole said she has been hit with “whatever that primal thing is, the need and desire to keep her very protected.”
“People say, ‘Oh, it would be so much easier if you’d just let them get a photo of her.’ And I can’t. I’m like, ‘I don’t want to. I want her to stay out of that,’” Nicole told the mag. “Maybe that will wane as she gets bigger, and I’ll be easier with it. But for now, I’m still keeping her in a bubble.”
After suffering a miscarriage during her marriage to Tom Cruise, Nicole had just about given up hope of carrying a child. As a result, the blessing she and husband Keith Urban were given with baby Sunday Rose is not lost on her one bit.
“I’m raw and emotional,” Nicole said. “I cry even thinking of her. But they are tears of joy because, I suppose, I never thought I would get to have it. To have been given it so late in life—I’m so ready for it. And I think giving birth to a child, as a woman, is what we’re born to do. I don’t mean that to sound sexist, because many women don’t get to do it, and I thought I was one of them. But at the same time, if you are given that gift, it’s an extraordinary thing.”
Nicole noted, however, that having a baby later in life has made her more concerned for her own safety.
“At 41, I think, ‘I want to see her 21st birthday, and I want to see her get married,’” Nicole, who also has two teenage children, Connor and Isabella with Tom, said. “My relationship with death used to be far more ambivalent, I think, and now it’s very much about staying in the world. That’s why in the past I could jump out of planes and take a lot of risks. Strangely enough, I think when you have children at 25, you still have that ‘what will be, will be’ attitude. It’s such a different way of parenting. Bella and Connor were very free and easy, probably because they had parents who were very young and jumping around the world and pretty easygoing.”
In the interview, Nicole also opened up about her husband’s battle with alcoholism, which saw him head to rehab in California, not long after they tied the knot.
“We were thrown into his alcohol problem three months into the marriage, and that was big,” Nicole said. “We became the closest we could become, because we had to bare our souls. We did 10 years of marriage in three months. You go to hell and back with this. When the addiction takes control of the life, it’s terrifying. But there is hope, and we work on it every day, and we are in a place of actual peace right now, which is a beautiful place. I love him so deeply, and he has done an amazing amount of work, and he is an amazing husband, and I am just very, very grateful. I think we are both in a place of humility.”